Blog
I was going to write a book, but instead, I share aspects of my
writings here...it feels much easier and more fresh that way.
There’s something really beautiful about being able to express feelings and experiences in words so that others can share in them and resonate with the sentiment and shared experience of being human. I really enjoy writing these thoughts and feelings down as poems, and I share some of them here with you, in all vulnerability, with love of our shared human being.
It’s just so Beautiful.
Being.
The simple Is-ness that is.
A case of mistaken identity...
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My mind likes things ordered, it likes things right, it likes things balanced, equal, and clear (kind of)
Until I met LOVE...
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I wanted peace, but don’t think I wanted it
I wanted love, but couldn’t quite bare it
I wanted freedom, but was also really scared of it...
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Oh, when I put you in…the bottomless pit that opens!
Like on Trainspotting, when Renton sinks into the ground...
Nonduality is not a way out, of anything; of any pain, of any sorrow, of any hurt.
Nonduality, if anything, will reveal the pain, sorrow and hurt, of whatever is here.
Like a wound, waiting, under an inappropriate-fitting plaster...
Beyond Nondual Concepts and Words
Nonduality isn’t what it sounds like.
What I mean is, the mind thinks its a thing; an idea, a collection of words and sentences, it thinks it’s a group, a teacher, a movement, a state, a feeling, an achievement, a solidness, a thing...
Animals and trees do not get to celebrate this.
Yes, they don’t get the suffering of this human, but they also then don’t get to celebrate this
acknowledgement, this recognition of what we are, like humans do. As they were never lost in dream, they don’t get to wake up...
Autistic Survivor
I just didn’t know what was going on, what they were doing, that was the worst bit.
Thrown to the wolves, that’s what it reminds me of.
I accept it might sound harsh to describe my fellow human like that. But honestly that is the best way I can describe it...
Where we sit
So, at some point, I knew I was different, I knew I didn’t fit in, I knew I didn’t belong here...but I didn’t know what it was, or why.
Only discovering my neurodiversity many many years later...
Nonduality from this place
I didn’t understand how nonduality applied to my life, and seeing that could only happen in apparent time.
It could only happen by going back into me and my life, going back into the dream, going back into unfinished business, going back to using...
The Importance of knowing who you are beyond identity
Identities can be so lovely, especially when it’s an unknown one, and you find it and it fits. It helps make what you experience make sense. It can be life-changing to find the language, the understanding, the shared experience and expression. However, I feel that not knowing who you ultimately are, what I mean by ultimately are, is, who you are beyond labels and names, who you are beyond thought,..
The Rocky Road of Losing Self
My first spiritual mentor told me that I didn’t need to kill myself, that I could meet God while I was alive; this really excited me. This mentor led me into a world that had been hidden from me before, it was so magical and mind-expanding. He got me into gong to retreats, Buddhist meditations, Chakra work, Auras,..
Humanity can be healed
I was drawn to non-duality because of its unity, because of its undivided-ness, it went beyond borders, beyond differences.
Now it doesn’t eradicate the differences, (which I think is beautiful), but it is energetically beyond them.
It speaks to the whole, not the division.
It speaks to that which can’t be labelled...
I taste freedom because you win
As an autistic person, finally learning that life's set up to not work the way it's logically meant to, gives me such clarity, relief and acceptance.
It clarifies confusion. It soothes frustration...
your lens was yours
It’s funny being a parent, because you want to help your children and guide them based upon your learnings of the world, and while that is sensible and natural, as you begin...